Friday, November 20, 2020

the story of - one bean at a time


 I did not like beans when I was a child. I refused to eat them. My grandmother - bless her heart -decided that was unacceptable and took it upon herself to get me to eat my beans.

There is an old Christian song titled "One Day at a Time". It goes - "One day at a time sweet Jesus. That's all I'm asking of you." This is the version I remember from my childhood. If you want - take a listen. It is really a prayer that is relevant more and more.

     Written by Marijohn Wilkin and Kris Kristofferson
                                                         Sung by Christy Lane

My Grandmother took that song and changed the lyrics just slightly. (You know where this is going - don't you?) She would put a bean on my fork and sing - "One bean at a time sweet Jesus. That's all I'm asking of you." 

Well, it worked. I would eat my beans. And today - I like all kinds of beans. Good job Grandmother.

Over the last few years - I have become overwhelmed very easily when I had too many tasks to do. My anxiety can sometimes get the best of me. So I wrote down the words "ONE BEAN AT A TIME" on a post-it-note and taped it to my computer.


I don't always heed my own advice. But when I do - two things come to my mind. One - you can't do everything at the same time - no one can for crying out loud. And two - my precious grandmother. She was great. I smile, take a breath and start again.

                                            8/24/1992

Everyone is in such a hurry today. And some people can be downright demanding of you. But my grandmother's little song rings true - "One bean at a time sweet Jesus. That's all I'm asking of you." Because let's face it - without the help of Yeshua (Jesus) I will stay overwhelmed and anxious. I will tumble down the rabbit hole of panic (sometimes that hole can go on forever for me). And all that does is rob me of joy and precious peace. 

So, Yeshua help me to take each day and task one bean at a time. And I ask you to please flood my life with your joy and your peace. Amen.



Tuesday, November 17, 2020

Just Today

I have messed up. Life is hard. I need a place to process things. Some of the thoughts running through my head right now. I have a sick feeling in my stomach - because my humaness took over my heart, mind and actions and not Yeshua. Not Jesus. Also - Titus is next to me snoring his ever-loving head off right now. It is hard to concentrate on much else.


So what do I do with this? How do I get through this?

By constantly reminding yourself Amy - just today - one bean at a time. That's how.

I have to place my actions, mind and heart in Yeshua's hands today. EVERYDAY! EVERY MINUTE OF EVERYDAY! Ask for forgiveness and with his help navigate through the ishyness.

And wake up Titus and get him to find a different position. It is really driving me crazy.